On November 11, 1997, Veronika decided that the moment to kill herself had – at last! – arrived. She carefully cleaned the room that she rented in a convent, turned off the heat, brushed her teeth, and lay down. – From Veronika Decides to Die, page 1-
Simply written with prose that is almost dreamlike in its quality, Veronika Decides to Die explores life in the face of death, the meaning of insanity, and the importance of following one’s dreams.
Veronika, a young woman, finds herself in a mental institution in Slovenia after a failed suicide attempt. Told she has only days to live because of the overdose’s damage to her heart, Veronika begins to re-evaluate her life. The characters Veronika meets provide the catalyst for her self-reflection: Zedka, the depressed housewife; Mari, the lawyer who gave up her dreams for panic attacks; and Eduard, a schizophrenic artist who has spent his life denying love. Dr. Igor, the administrator of the mental hospital plays a pivotal role in this philosophical novel and his theories of insanity are used to question the idea of normalcy.
While I was reading this book, I began to think about the children and adults with Autism who I have had the privilege of working with…at a seminar several years ago a Speech Pathologist told the story of a young boy with Autism. Whenever he would flap his hands around his face, the boy’s mother would caution him, “Stop that. Don’t you want to be normal?” And the boy would agree, yes normalcy was what he wanted. One day the Speech Pathologist asked the boy, “Do you know what normal is?” And the boy confidently replied, “Sure. It’s a setting on the dryer.” I laughed when I heard this story because it was an example of how words like ‘normal’ only have meaning within the context of an individual’s unique experience. Paulo Coelho makes this same argument in Veronika Decides to Die. Sanity is only defined by universal experiences – those individuals who are different or unique or view the world solely from their own perspective are often labeled “not normal” or “crazy.”
Coelho’s message in this novel seems to be one of following one’s dreams, going against the norm, living life to its fullest. As the character Mari explains:
As each character comes face to face with his or her own mortality, they are forced to look back on their lives and explore their failed dreams. They also ponder God and faith.
This is the second Paulo Coelho novel I have read. Coelho has a unique voice and style – philosophical and dreamlike. His stories are written like fables, with messages about life, God and faith as the over-riding themes. I enjoyed Veronika Decides to Die because it made me think of my own dreams and life path.